Homesick

Bambi Dress: Hot Topic

Scarf: Wet Seal

Boots: Charlotte Russe (You can only see part of 'em in the 3rd picture. Whoops.)

Lipstick: "Poisonberry" from Lime Crime

So I went home this past weekend. (I go home a lot of weekends, actually.) I got to hang out with my boyfriend and my girlfriends from home, which was great. <3

I miss home all the time. I mean, I love the people in my dorm. They're awesome. And I've done a lot of fun things on campus. But even after four months, I still miss my room, having my own space, and sleeping in my bed. I miss my cats. I miss my family. I don't know. I was just hoping that I'd be more immersed in college life by now. But I still don't really view it as my second "home". It's just school to me. Basically, I've been living life based on the next time I get to go home, which I know isn't good. I don't know HOW people from out of state do it. I only live 45 minutes away from campus, and this is how I feel. But then again, I'm not super outgoing, and I'm very attached to my home.

I'm  also very shy and kind of withdrawn, so it's hard for me to open up to people. Therefore, I don't hang out with people other than my roommate a great deal. I guess that's part of the reason I still get homesick. Home is my comfort zone, I guess.

But I know I have to get out of my comfort zone at some point.... That's why I chose to live in a dorm and not commute. Hopefully as time continues to go on I'll start to feel better about things.

Sorry for the downer post. I want to try and keep this blog positive, but sometimes I just get to thinking way too much. Guess I've just been down. 

Like, I still need to figure out my spring schedule. One of my pretty important classes (Fashion Fabrics) is full save for one section, which conflicts with other commitments in my life. >.< So I've been really stressing.

I should probably work on my Fashion Tech project now. This is long enough as is. haha So I'll talk to you later, Interweb. Hopefully with something more positive. 

Much love, dolls

-Bonnie